really not insomnia.

i must apologises as it appears i have neglected this blog for a while, mainly because i've been focusing on my other two, one posing as a brothel writer, the other simply me, and this one being slightly restrictive as it's supposed to be for when i can't sleep. unfortunately that's generally when i've turned my laptop off and i don't have the energy to either turn it back on, or go on via my ipod touch. the keyboard on that takes a great deal of patience which i rarely have at 3am.
so it's now less of a bunch of semi conscious bumblings, and more lively thoughts, seeing as some people actually do read this (: i thank you all.
not sure if i put this in the last post, or in my other blog, but i think i'm finally managing to get over Sebastian, slowly, yes, but the hopes and needs are fading, meaning i can concentrate in burning the fat off my disgusting body. obviously not using a fire.. i'm all for being a piromaniac, hence the decision to take A level chemistry, but if i tried to burn the fat off my body, i would probably die, or end up with epic scars. neither of which i'm feeling right at this moment to be frank.
last night it was odd actually, talking to Joshua, the fool was almost asleep bless him, he still wouldn't just.. well.. sleep. but i love the lesbianic fool, he's great to talk to so it works for me (: and i was catching up on Hotel Babylon, i don't know why but i loveeee it, it may be incredibly tacky and full of cliches, but it's one of the decent programmes the BBC offer these days, in addition to the Supersizers eat.. although the Giles bloke irritates me slightly.. it's the way he chews :S and Top Gear. i'm not massively into cars, but that show actually makes it humorous and therefore gives an insentive to watch. Jeremy is, a bit of a prat, but Richard Hammond is so adorable, and James May is just.. well.. odd.
i hardly watch tv now though, i find it rather dull and just encourages me to eat and get fat. at least with blogging, my finger get an amazing workout :D most of the time because i'm slightly high on caffine, i hardly get a kick though, drinking it from the age of about 5 makes you slightly more immune i think. but it's handy for when i have to do a history or english assignement, they require much manic finger action, makes them dance along the keys like hot coals, so sweet.. oooo, they could do a finger olympics.. which hand's to host it THIS year ?
haaaa, sad, i make myself giggle, slightly.. not alot.. ahem (:
ooo, email from facebook, possibly Joshua being incredibly excited about his birthday on monday, it is sweet to be fair, but the roads are going to be in danger.. that's IF he starts driving anyway.. as soon as my brother passed his test, the roads were already in peril. he drove me and my mom back from Wales last week, i almost threw up his driving was terrible along twisty lanes, and when your lying in the back with a laptop sticking in the side of your head and your feet dangling out the window, you don't exactly feel safe. having said that, i was in a huff, so i may have provoked it. bleh. i miss the sea ):

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