love.. ? what is that ?

i have come to realise, that being at the ripe age of 16, or in fact from the age of about 13 when "relationships" suddenly seem the thing you should be in, that the word "love" or the well used phrase, "i love you" comes to mean very little.
i mean don't get me wrong, in some cases, i guess it's true and there's a meaning behind those words. but in many cases it doesn't consumate alot.

i won't lie, i have said those 3 well known words to many people, but in very few cases actually felt that they mean anything deep and heart felt. however, at my age, it doesn't mean alot. in a way it's just to please a girlfriend / boyfried, make them believe that they're who you want, blah blah blah.

i regret a fair few times when i've said it to be frank, they didn't mean anything and it wasn't what i really wanted to say. for god's sake, i don't expect to fall in love at 16. the only guy i've ever said it to and really thought it meant something, was Sebastian. and yes, his name crops up all over again. but i do actually think i meant it which is kinda scary. and upsetting seeing how it's worked out.. but bleh.

i'm not even sure why i'm rattling on about it to be frank, maybe because Robbie's started with the whole 'love you' thing on the end of a text. it's nice to read but a tad annoying when you know it's utter bullshit. and generally all a teenage guy wants is an orgasm. note i say GENERALLY. i'm not implying every guy around my age just wants sex and porn. gah. i fear i'm digging myself a hole and climbing in, pulling the soil in after my and patting it around to create a lovely warm death pot thing.

the philosophical Rozz has returned, who is highly irritated with her internet because it's refusing to upload photos onto my blogs and so they look a tad bare and dull ): i may have to pray to baby jesus to get tiscali to miraculously love me (HA !) and therefore give me a lovely quick, reliable, working internet so i can make my blogs look attractive and famous :D
ooo, i have also managed to spread around the loveee for Hoobastank and Hinder today ^.^ i feel like a proud groupie. i was also reminded of some bands that i'd long forgotten, or just not listened to their stuff for ages because i've been so addicted to Royworld. i'm not complaining, merely saying :D

anywhooooo
i have a loverly warm bed waiting (':

toodles

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